{ Bel Janie }

I hate Diet, I don't believe it can really change anything... But I do believe in cute little dresses for the holiday. I don't have much weight left to lose, but these past few week, it's been hard for me to concentrate on my weight. I've been focusing a lot on my health issue that keeps popping up and down on me and it has been way too stressful for me to handle and my big problem with stress is I eat crap and lots of it.

I've also been struggling with water retention caused by pills I needed to take, and it really made me sad and feeling ugly. And the worst is, when I'm sad, what help me feel better is eating, which is the reason why I'm sad! It's so stupid! But I can help it. Well, I can but, most of the time, at that moment it's the only thing I can think about, it stronger than everything.

But now, I'm done with excuses because, all this, even if they are really true and hard thing to overcome, are just excuses! What I want is not a quick fix to how I'm feeling, it's a permanent way of feeling better. And the biggest thing I have difficulties with and make me sad is those 10-20 pounds I need to lose. So I'm going to do it! But I don't want to only be skinny, I want to be healthy! That's why I found a program online that will help me achieve that!

Last Sunday, I started the 90 Days Challenge By Blogilates. I choose this one because of the meal plan. I want something that will make me eat often and keep me full all day long to keep me from eating crap. I do not follow her video for the workout since I have a gym membership and, for me personally, I prefer working out out of the house, it's less distracting and since you pay for it and you don't want to waste your money, it's easier to stay motivated that way. It has always been easier for me to follow a list and have a schedule, that's when I'm the most comfortable. Otherwise, it's easy to say, oh just that one time and not realize how far away from your goal you have been.

Let's get real here. When I did all my post about healthy eating I had dropped to 128Lb, now I'm at 145Lb. It's a lot... Even if some of it is water retention, it's still scary to see those number. I wanna reach 125 or bellow before Christmas, which is kinda possible. The 22 of December, the shop where I work would be closed so I would be able to push my training which I'm truly eager to!

I would try to give you update here and there (Maybe tonight I would upload a picture of the now and show you my progress, but I'm a little shy...). I hope you enjoy this post, I would talk to you later this week. Bye-ee!!