{ Bel Janie }

Let me start by saying a big thank you to all of you that read my blog! We just hit a thousand pages views! It may not be that big of a deal for a lot of people, but to me, it really means the world! So thank you all a thousand times! This blog brought me something I'm truly thankful for, you've helped me be myself.

I've always been a pretty shy person. I'm never the person that stands out when I'm with a group of person. If there is someone I don't know that come sits with us, I would stop talking until, if there is alcohol involve, I'm drunk enough. I'm awkward, I don't really feel like I have anything important to say and when I start talking, I struggle with my train of tough and stutter.

It starts changing when I was 18 and got my first job as a cashier. As long as customers would not scream at me, I would do a decent job at having a good conversation with them and I was able to look at them and not have my head down. Sadly, I would still struggle with my "out of the job" social life with people that were not my friend. I would still feel unnatural, like I was forcing myself.

I realize the problem was even bigger than I ever anticipated  a year after I met my boyfriend. We would have littles normal argument and I would freeze and cry for no actual reason. Most of the time my emotion would spike because I was unable to speak out my tough, I had to leave, collect my thought then speak with him about our differences.

With this blog, since I'm always talking about things that I like and tough that I have, it truly opens me up and helps me collect my thoughts more easily and I start feeling more like I'm adding to a conversation when I say the thing I have in mind. I have met so many new amazing people since then, people I would never have been able to be myself in front of before and I would forever be grateful for that.

I really appreciate each and every of you that came to this blog, even if I don't always have feedback, I'm always so grateful for every page views I get and I sincerely hope that some of my posts are useful to you, may it be for a product you decide to use and loved or my deeper tiny post that inspired you. I really want to be able to help you as much as you helped me. Enough with the sappiness, I would talk to you real soon! Bye-ee