{ Bel Janie }

I used to be a cashier at an organic store in Montreal. I stayed there for 3 years and I really loved it. I had been a cashier for about 2 years before starting there and it wasn't because I was studying or because I didn't have a diploma, it was because I was scared. Scared of becoming an adult.

I know it can sound strange and I don't imply that working as a cashier is not an "adult" job, it's just that for me, it was a way to not think too much about the future. I didn't have to think about buying a house, a car or even having kids. I just had to think of the now and then. How I'm I going to be able to pay my bills, my apartment, my food and having some left for fun and emergency. I more than often had nothing left after all the "important" stuff and I didn't want to go out or met with my friend because I never had money.

In July of last year, I start to realize that I would never go far in the grocery store I was working at. And if I would, it would not be soon. I had to change department because I needed some changes and I kept being told I would have a better post soon, but it never happens. Worst, I changed post on last minute notice and I was so mad. In October, I quit my job and start a new one in a tea shop. I didn't even finish my training that I was told I didn't "fit" in her group and that I was fired, by email.

That's when I really start to doubt myself. I felt so down, not worth it, I had always tough that customer service was the thing I was good at, but now I doubt it. And now that I look at it, it's not that I was not good at it, I didn't just need a new place, I needed a new challenge. I start sending tonnes and tonnes of resume everywhere they were looking for a graphic designer. From November to December, the only thing I was doing was working on my portfolio and resume and sending them everywhere. I was called, a little before Christmas. A printing company was looking for a graphic designer/receptionist and I got the job.

So this is where I am now :) I really love my job! It changed my life in so many ways! Now, I want to go out every day, I see my friend all the time, I don't feel drained out every night I come back home and scream at my boyfriend for no reason. I'm so much more relax because I now have money in my bank account. I want a start doing design on the side to earn more money. I open this blog, which I really enjoy doing. Having my weekend off, help me do so much more activities with my boyfriend, we go hiking, biking, skiing, I can go to brunch with my friend on weekends. I want to spend more on clothing, which was useless before, since I had my uniform most of the time and didn't go out much and just take care of myself more.

So this is my story, I hope it will push you to go and grab what you want in life. This was the most stressful 2 month in my life, but it was so much worth it. Never think less of yourself and do the thing that makes you happy. Don't just wish for the week to end, make your everyday your weekend. Have a fantastic week, and I would write to you soon.